bleahness. i hate this. feeling so helpless and everything. sucks.
ptm wasn't too bad. just sat there and smiled for the whole five mins or so. yups. really gotta work harder for bio i guess. am still thinking of wad to take in uni if i make it in. considering food science and psychology. maybe accountancy. see how larhs.
invest was saddening. after all band made up a big part of jc life, and the thought of really leaving the band kinda stinks. as much as i didn't like practising, it made me improve loads, through all the sectionals and band pracs. the crazy scores that were thrown at us pushed us to our limits, and even when we couldn't play them, i must say i still enjoyed the music. after all, there was chenyi to cover up for us (:
am so gonna miss the banders. the crazy fools with their taupoks and crappy shits. those were the fun times that made band enjoyable. plus the j1s are really nice (: i love val hehs. honestly, she's a great girl. "this is so weird. i don't want u all to leave. i'm gonna miss all of you." wasn't really close to her all these while, but she really means what she says, and i guess we could all feel it. hugged her twice yest, and both times i teared. maybe im just emotional la huh haha. but yea, life on weds and sats are gonna feel so different without band. oh and andrew was quite funny haha. i was sitting in the band rm with ellyne when he randomly came up and said "you all must come back ok?" haha so he think he damn great la, we must come back to see him hurhur. all things come to an end i guess, whether good or bad.
was so tempted to msg u last night but decided against it heh. sighs.
and i ought to stop slping with my hair wet, it's giving me horrible headaches.
xoxo
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i wish i was like you, and im sorry that im not. at least i still have hope, i guess that's all ive got. and soon i'll be smiling, everything will be okay.
xoxo
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ain't gonna say im sad over my results, coz if i do i'll prolly get beaten up or smth haha. but still, i can't help being disappointed over my bio. after all it's the first time i actually studied so much for it. never bothered studying for bio in the past coz i feel stupid doing so. could never understand and memorize all the nonsense la huhs. turns out i scored the lowest for the sub i studied the most blarhs. oh wells, i guess it's just a sub that requires memory work..smth which i was never really good at. in any case, it's over alr so just gonna hafta work harder for prelims. which is in like 51 days! bleahs.
on a lighter note, band's ending in a week! (: i'll miss the pple and music though. but band really takes up too much time so i guess it's high time the responsibilities are passed down. and it's odd how i dun miss playing perc anymore ha.
am really tired due to lack of slp. had to finish my gp essay yest night before slping, which apparently took hours coz i decided to be guai and do proper research (: i better pass this essay if not im gonna toss myself outta the window hehs.
xoxo
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some recent stuff got me thinking. bout myself and also pple around me. just can't help but feel that a person's thoughts are so complicated it's so hard to comprehend. even for myself actually. sometimes i don't even know wad and how im thinking. so when i say i don't know, i really don't know (: unless i manage to figure wad im thinking that is hahah. but sometimes i really wonder if im doing the right thing.
someone once told me that God always puts someone around for you to share ur troubles with, to guide you when u're at a loss. i didn't believe it at first, but thinking back, i realized it's quite true. just when i started drifting away from someone i trusted pretty much, there comes along another one. i must say i really appreciate these pple, even though i don't say it out, coz they made life in jc so much better (:
am just gonna try to concentrate on studies and not think bout anything else hehs.
xoxo
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a cold and friendless tide has found you, don't let the stormy darkness pull you down. paint a ray of hope around you, circling in the air, lighted by a prayer.