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20050930 ♥
lol quizzing spree huh. nah i just have nth better to do.
You are Akiko Raven. You're a very kind person, who
probably has alot of friends. You're a good
listener and help your friends out whenever
possible, your probably great at cheering
people up, too. But, in listening to other's
problems you never tell anyone of your deep
issues you keep bottled up inside. Open up and
make one of your friends be the listener for
once, its not healthy to keep everything
bottled up.
A qoute that applies to you; I rather be hated for
who I am rather then be liked for what I am
not.
Which one of my friends are you most like?
brought to you by Quizilla
xoxo
♥
heh im bored and i don't feel like mugging =)
Your element is earth: Wise, solitary, mysterious
and loving. You are very wise. Your wise as in
you know things others do not. You can see past
the stereotypes and see the real people behind
their facades, people will often come to you
for help and advice. Quite solitary and
somewhat shy around people because you prefer
animals and plants. Animals aren't afraid to
show themselves or what they are feeling and
plants are fun to nurture. You are very strong
in your silence, if you set your mind on
something you will often times pursue it to the
end. Sometimes you just want to get away, so
you seek refuge in the forest where you can
have time to think and try to sort out your
emotions. The sound of the wind usually calms
you, especially moving through the trees. Life
to you is something precious and should not be
taken for granted.
.:-|What is your true element?|-:. -With Anime Pictures and detailed answers-
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xoxo
20050927 ♥
thank goodness bio was first.
great wake up call for me to start studying chem
hopefully i'll get an O for bio. that's all i want.
provided that i pass chem though.
felt like shit after the structured paper. feel like flushing my head down the toilet bowl or smth hah. it wasn't that hard, really. esp the essays. BUT i didn't study enough. okay i din't even study much in the first place. forgot every single thing that i learnt during the hols. cell structure and stuff. and bio molecules too. and basically just everything la. rarr. im hell pissed at myself for not mugging yest. and the day before. and bleah every single day la. i should prob dedicate the next 6 days to mugging my ass off and worship my chem plus math books.
and i should stop going online damnit.
xoxo
20050926 ♥
ive come to realize that getting a bf isn't everything. after thinking bout it for a long time, i decided that having a guy friend whom u can really confide to is better than having one single guy who means everything to you. honestly.
i always wondered how those idiots in tv shows can give up who they like coz they want the other party to be happie, even if it meant hurting themselves in the process. i used to think that if u want something badly enough, fight for it. if not, u'll never be able to get it. but now, i truly understand. okay maybe not fully yet, but i trust that i will in the future =)
bio paper's tmr. and i know shit about it. how interesting eh? im so gonna pass promos. yayys. cheers to weixin!
xoxo
20050925 ♥
it suddenly just occured to me that i really really dun wanna get retained. retaining is NOT an option for me. i have to get promoted. i need to, i must, and i will.
it's scary to be on the brink of retaining. ive been through it, and i dun wanna go through that again. probation is a nono. [though ms ong was really nice haha (: ] sometimes i feel, it's really your mentality. if u want to get promoted desperately enough, im sure u'll be motivated to study. on the other hand, if others keep putting u down, u'll think to urself that u're not gonna pass, resulting in the loss of determination to study. so yes, everybody jiayou! we must ALL get promoted =)
~`~`~`~`~`~~`~`~```~`~`~``~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~~`~`~``~`~~~`~`~~~`~``~~`~``~~
i dun see the point of pretending that nothing has happened. i mean, it already happened, and the best thing to do now is to forget it and build back the trust in the friendship. no doubt it would be awkward at first, but after awhile i guess it would just go back to normal. anyway, it's the rough times in friendships that bring friends even closer isn't it?
xoxo
20050923 ♥
1 down, 3 more to go =) plus a bio spa. heh.
i think the 2nd gp passage's really nice and meaningful. okay only the last 2 paras. coz i din really understand the first part. yeah. it's true isn't it? death gives life it's meaning.
not in the mood to blog..shall leave a song instead.
Safe in a Crazy World
I try to smile my tears away
I try to keep my cool
oh but one more door gets in my way
I feel like such a fool
trampled and bitter
my heart just wants to bleed and stop
believing in me
it feels like nothing is for certain
and that nothing comes for free
when they're lowering the curtain to the
theatre of my dreams
I stumble and I crumble and I'm
sinking to my knees but you
you cradle me
You keep me flying
You keep me smiling
You keep me safe in a crazy world
You understand me
Embrace my fragility
You keep me safe in a crazy world
And in your arms I find the strength
To believe in me again
Noise keeps chasing me
no matter where I go
oh and life likes pretending that it's
on a tv show
when it's hard to tell what's real
from what the world just wants to preach
you are the world I seek
'cause when I'm wrapped up in your arms
nothing else can touch me
what a wonderful way to recharge
I feel like I can breathe again
You keep me flying
You keep me smiling
You keep me safe in a crazy world
And in your arms I find the strength
to believe in me again
xoxo
20050919 ♥
night study's productive but hell tiring.
just got home 10 mins ago and im almost deaded.
gonna go sleep early tonite. at least i did some work.
like..finally hahaha.
xoxo
20050918 ♥
it feels good to know that we're still on good terms. yep.
2 hours of ghost stories and crapping. brings back all the memories. memories of crazy night walks all the way from lakeside to jurong east. walking out to cheers and along the canal just to slack. playing badminton everyday without fail. colour catching. block catching. condo catching. chain in the lobby when it rains. honestly, i miss the fun times last year. though it affected my results a little la haha. but all for the fun of it. doubt we'll ever get a chance to do all that again.
i know that u have nothing against me la haha, but after all that has happened, it's inevitable to feel wierd around each other. which prob explains why we've all been avoiding each other. u can't imagine how surprised i was when i got the msg..but hah yeah.
thank goodness for sparkles, lanterns, lame jokes and ghost stories =) tonight's been a wonderful night with no mugging, no stress, no nothing. and im gonna sleeeep heh.
xoxo
20050916 ♥
bahahah mugging is fun! and i seriously think so! im NOT kidding neither am i psychotic hahaha. i just happen to like the sense of accomplishment from understanding certain topics that used to be really foreign to me. don't everyone? =)
heh. these few days have sorta been mugging days. stayed back in sch everyday till 5+/6 to study coz i know i would slack if i came back home, and it's been rather useful (: im almost done with mole concept, which was smth i could NEVER do. just hafta figure out a lil part after i get the answers to the notes from cariann. self-studying's gooood heh. learnt how to name organic stuff after re-copying the chem tut. finished MI and partial fractions. not that it's very difficult, but still..haha. gonna finish up photosynthesis later. and do differentiation tmr. hah, for once im planning ahead. don't have much choice though, have got so much to cover but only 7 days left. ok actually 6, since today's almost over. just started on chem, and haven't really done much for math. thank goodness PCC and transformation's not in, if not i'll just die haha. bio's more or less fine, besides the recombinant DNA technology part. i have zilch idea of what's going on in there.
okie im feeling lazy to blog so i shall go continue copying my chem tut =)
xoxo
20050913 ♥
school is just..baddd.
and the thing is that it's not the workload of the coming promos. in fact, undone work seldom gets to me. i always manage to finish them up in sch somehow hah. by sacrificing my break times (: not that i mind. i like it when the classroom's quiet and empty. makes everything feel calm and peaceful.
listening to ff music always makes me feel melancholic. it's just soo..slow, soulful and everything.
seems like ive sank into another bout of depression, and i feel bad for feeling this way, but it's not as if i can help it. i have my reasons for being so. ah wells, playing mind games are definitely not my thing.
okay im not gonna care, im not gonna bother. and here's where "ignorance is bliss" comes in useful. self-denial, ignorance. whatever it takes to make me happy.
hah this is bad, im becoming pessimistic all over again. hmm..maybe it's the music. ought to get rid of it haha. ban it from my comp =)
haha it's rather freaky how the horoscope thing on friendster is actually accurate to some extent. "solitude feels just right for you in this moment." how true.
xoxo
20050911 ♥
bahaha.
add fish and co, jap food, curry fish head, prawn mee and porridge to that menu.
and that's all for the week =)
not alot la hor. heh. im on my way to TAF club! but ah. the joy of eating. yumyum. it's HEAVENLY. i feel indulgent. dang. why's food so irresistable.
hah ive got tons of undone hw as usual. shall do them tmr. wheeeeee!
i want icecreammm
xoxo
20050909 ♥
food is EVIL.
but considering that i din gain any weight, who cares? =)
heh let's see wad i ate.
day before: chicken rice, nydc mudpie, coffee bean cheesecake plus dinner.
yesterday: subway, prata and milo dinosaur
today: chwee kueh, carrot cake, stingray and hokkien mee!
bahahah. MADNESS.
xoxo
20050908 ♥
angel, for you =)
Don't worry about that extra line
That's creeping up upon your face
It's just a part of nature's way to say you've grown a little more
Trees have rings and thicker branches
Kids shoes get a little tighter
Every year we're getting closer to who we're gonna be
It's time to celebrate the story of how you've come to be
Happy Birthday, my friend
Here's to all the years we've shared together
All the fun we've had
You're such a blessing
Such a joy in my life
May the good Lord bless you
And may all your dreams come true
So light a candle on your cake
For every smile you've helped create
For every heart and every soul
You've helped to grow a little more
A few more pounds, a little more grey
Dont count the years, just count the way
It takes a little time to go from water into wine
Dont ever lose the wonder of that child within your eyes
Happy Birthday, my friend
Here's to all the years we've share together
All the fun we've had
You're such a blessing
Such a joy in my life
May the good Lord bless you
And may all your dreams come true
xoxo
20050907 ♥
*okay blogger refused to lemme post the whole entry together so i had to split it up. read the previous entry before this one. mmhmm*
left with cariann and reached home close to 7. had my dinner, took a bath and went online. those singnet pple had to come so late hah. they were supposed to come between 4-6 but came at 7.30 instead. so yeah, was chased off the comp coz they had to fix smth. decided to go slack around on my bed and fell aslp while waiting for my comp =x woke up at 2.30 feeling super energetic and went online for awhile before deciding to mug for bio coz i din want to wake my dad up and get a scolding for using the comp at such an unearthly hour. mugged for 2 hours before going to slp again. spent one whole day doing cell structure. siann. hopefully i can cover all the topics in the syllabus before promos.
going out with angel today, which means that today's slacker day! wheeee. shall go change and get ready for a feast muahahah.
xoxo
♥
i think im mad. seriously.
bahaha okay, yest first. went sch at 9 for extra chem tut, and i din do the tut as usual haha. ive never ever done a single chem tut =x was supposed to last for an hour but dragged on till around 1045. i ought to do my chem tuts again man. imabadbadgurl. =)
left with
darcy joined us after his lunch in town. moved over and sat with him coz he din want to sit beside cariann lol, and there wasn't enough space anyway. finally started to mug productively coz i plugged my ears and heaven! no more cariann bahaha. okay i could still hear her a little over the music but still, better than sitting opp her heh. yep, and so we mugged till bout 6. at least i did. the 2 of them were prob talking more than half the time lol.
-to be continued-
xoxo
20050905 ♥
heh decided to blog about happier stuff from now on. no point for people to read a blog that's so sad and reflective all the time =) i think people are bored with confuxin's philosophical ideas and thinking. or maybe they don't even understand half of what im talking about hah, so i shall revert back to normal blogging. everyone- yayys!
know what? i basically wasted the whole of yest. got up at 9, ate breakfast, slacked around, went for lunch and shopped for groceries. came back bout 4 and slept till 6+ and went for dinner. reached home, watched tv, and went online till 3. how smart eh? totally din do anything yest muahaha. was feeling damn piggish.
todaytodaytoday. got up real early coz i was too lazy to go sch myself. got a lift from my dad instead and reached sch at 7. went to the study area to mug, not that i did much though. like..3 pages of bio, before i got distracted by the noise around me coz people started arriving for the chem mass lect. chem lect was boringgg. okay the first 2 were still fine, by the 3rd one i was half-stoning already, thinking of what to eat for lunch. was totally lost at the rxn kinetics tut. haiya stupid reactions why you so fast, my brain needs time to process your order you know. weixin the waitress is just a little retarded. must be the excessive bonding sessions with atoms and attempts to be impartial between the left and the right.
stayed in the canteen to crap for awhile before going for bio consultation. wasn't planned though, just saw leslie and corny going..and since i had nth better to do hah. just go lor. yupyup. 'twas pretty good, cleared up a few concepts here and there. went back to canteen with jes to look for angel to mugg. mmhmm, stayed there till 4+ when i couldn't concentrate anymore and came home. and so, weixin shall stay at home and slack till tmr. okay maybe i'll attempt to lock myself up in my bro's room to mug tonite, provided that i can stay awake hah.
xoxo
20050904 ♥
in cornfucious's exact words:
"people say the world can't accept them for who they are and complain, but since they want to be in society so much, why don't they change? nobody is born like that, besides physical appearance."
people yearn for social acceptance, always trying to fit in, conforming to others' ways which are actually against their moral values. but have they ever thought of the root of the problem? is it society, or is it they themselves?
for me, i think the problem doesn't lie with the person, but with society. each and every person have their merits and defects, and people should learn to see others' good points rather than concentrate on the bad and despise them because it. if people learn to be more acceptable and tolerant of others' behaviour, then they wouldn't be able to complain about their lives. i guess it all boils down to how you see people.
yes it's true that nobody is born with a bad character, it's just the physical appearance. but it's normal for people to be prejudiced against someone who looks wierd isn't it hah. true, character can be changed, but i don't see why a person has to change themselves in a bid to be accepted by society, coz it'd just not be the real them. what's the point of putting up a fake front, willing people to accept the you who's actually not you? it would just make your life miserable. i guess that's where "life likes pretending that it's on a tv show, when it's hard to tell what's real, from what the world just wants to preach" comes about. think about it, i think it makes sense.
then comes the problem of what's real and what's not. some people are straightforward, saying and doing exactly what they feel, while others like me, are more careful with their words and feelings. good or bad, im not sure, but im not gonna change myself to try to fit into somewhere i don't belong. like or hate me, i don't care, just don't bother me.
i just dun understand how some people can be so dense. maybe i just don't show it, but it doesn't mean that i don't feel it you know. at times, i really feel like slapping you, but no i won't do that hah, coz it's just not me. im becoming psychotic, yes, but not violent haha. ive learnt to let go, but i can't help still feeling that way. however, you ought to keep in mind what ive said before. otherwise, you'll never understand my actions.
random quote from a show i just watched:
-whether life brings us sunshine or storm, we must face it bravely..
xoxo
20050903 ♥
change is inevitable.
but is it actually beneficial? what do we gain from it? more often than not, people are too caught up in this ever-changing world to take a moment out of their hectic lives to think about things that are happening around them. as a slacker, i admit, maybe i reflect a little too much. so much so that it gets me frustrated at times.
things change, and so do people. i used to think that everybody close to me could be trusted, but ive been proven otherwise. i used to be the kind of person who thinks the best of everybody, until something is done to change that impression, and still am..hopefully. a naive way of thinking, you might say, but that's just me and i won't change myself to fit your impression of me.
it's rather unnerving how some people can change so quickly, whereas for me, i take some time to weigh my options then make a decision. maybe it's just a libran thing hah. maybe..maybe they haven't changed. just that i don't know them well enough yet to see that it's part of their nature.
some things are just beyond my comprehension, and im not gonna try to understand them, for my efforts in trying to do so would be futile.
xoxo
20050901 ♥
sometimes, or rather always-
whenever im on the verge of breaking down, there will always be someone out there to support me. it feels like im teetering on the edge of a cliff. but im not afraid, i shan't be, coz i believe that someone will reach out and catch me just in time and bring me back to safety should i really fall.
thought things would turn out better, but it seems otherwise. can't u just be a little smarter and spare a thought for my feelings? it's really tough to keep going, acting nonchalant about everything. im tired of it all. looks like the lightening up's only temporary. once again, ive fallen into an abyss where i search aimlessly for answers to no avail.
one day, i might just ask u to shut up. and when i actually do that, u jolly well take me seriously. otherwise, i swear i'll hammer and chop u up to make human butter.
i seek the sense of enlightenment.
xoxo