changed loads ever since coming into cj. from the really quiet girl who sits and listens attentively in class to a relatively noisy one who throws markers around and bridges non-stop. just half a year ago i was still damn quiet in band, siam-ing straight after every band prac. now it's dinner/pool. feel like im wasting lotsa time and money recently. gah.
i don't know. sometimes i just miss the times in ny. i miss the food. cj food's getting crappier and crappier. i want the muffins back! and tov and ziling so that i can play piano with them againnn. it's so hard to concentrate properly on studies. okay at least i did some work today. like finally.
am starting to realize there really isn't much time left.
and for cariann: just learn to believe in urself more. it's a mentality thing u know. plus if u want something bad enough u will naturally work towards that target. don't give up and keep going, u'll eventually acheive ur goal (:
xoxo
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haha firstly, sorry jeremy. for psing u pple twice just now ha. heard that u were kinda pissed =x really really sorrieee. i'll treat u smth next time k! hahah (:
band's energy draining. plus it always causes me headaches. sucks la. stupid band room. my throat's killing me too. have been eating strepsils like nobody's business. which is kinda silly coz it totally doesn't help, and it's also a laxative. that explains why my stomach's been feeling funny for the whole day. must be the overdose of strepsils. darn.
band's getting more and more fun (: esp the bridge and dinners after every band prac. songs are sounding better now too, coz of the crazy practices. but it's kinda stressing pple out too. esp pple like me who can't play and have been faking my way through all the pracs. think sir's gonna take individuals next week. diediedie.
weixin decided to be a good girl and start doing her work. hopefully it'll work out. i need the motivation to studyyy. but there's nth to motivate me. besides food. which in fact distracts me. that stinks.
xoxo
20060322 ♥
Dancing bears, painted wings Things i almost remember And a song someone sings Once upon a December
tired.tired.tired
have been staying up late for the last few nights trying to finish up my gp essay outlines. only to know that she isn't actually collecting them to mark. argh. oh well..at least i learnt about buggers like hitler, roosevelt and stalin. people whom i was supposed to know due to hist but never bothered studying about ha.
ain't totally happy with my results, but am not unhappy over it either. i know for myself how much effort i put in this time round, and so..i guess i just deserve the marks.
rarr. shall slp early tonite.
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20060319 ♥
miss the days where everything was so simple ):
rarr it's all YOUR fault. u know who u are argh. won't u just tell me. bahhhhhhhh. this stinks.
haven't started on a single piece of work. ought to start doing my 3 essay outlines soon ehs.
xoxo
20060316 ♥
discoveries of the week:
pool's quite fun actually. but only when pple tell me which balls to hit haha.
dota's retarded. i don't see what's so fun bout it lol. attack, run, attack, run. cannot run then die hurhur. just had finger spasms on the mouse and keyboard for 1.5 hrs ONLY. oh well at least i reached level 19 (: starcraft's better though.
cs's alright. just that i keep getting backstabbed. literally. the guys were only allowed knife and pistols lol. similiar to quake. 18 frags though (: oh fine i know im a noob haha.
xoxo
20060312 ♥
where is the moment we needed the most you kick up the leaves and the magic is lost they tell me your blue skies fade to grey they tell me your passion's gone away and i don't need no carryin' on
NUS open was pretty cool, with all the freebies and stuff (:
wanna get into Food Science and Technology now. it's really nicee. had free orange juice and icecream heh. and they bake bread there too! cool shit man. med fac seems like such a far-fetched idea now. grades are too crappy to make it there. sigh.
xoxo
20060308 ♥
souls in the wind must learn how to bend seek out a star hold on to the end
pe yest was crappyyy. did like a thousand pullups and 5 runs plus circuits and standing broad jumps. couldn't even walk around properly today coz of the muscle aches. feel so useless. passed chem surprisingly (: was expecting an O/F heh. most of the marks were tyco i guess.
everyone's getting hooked onto disney songs hurhur. they're so nicee they're the best songs on earth..and maybe mars too (: started writing disney lyrics on my lect notes all over again heh.
live believing dreams are for weaving wonders are waiting to start
xoxo
20060307 ♥
if i can reach the stars pull one down for you shine it on my heart so you could see the truth
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20060301 ♥
so so so screwed up.
chem was shit hard. alright so it's my fault for not studying, but i didn't really study for bio too and it was actually do-able. chem's just MAD. i totally forgot all the crap bout energetics, ionic, organic. which is prob all that was tested ha. damn i feel so guilty. ms soh's gonna hate me from now on rarr.