i feel like telling him everything. but im afraid that if i do, everything will go wrong. i'd rather things stay the way they are now than take the chance and risk losing it all. it just feels..wierd.
out of a sudden, i dun feel like playing for marching season anymore. not that i don't appreciate the amount of effort corny put in to help me get the part, but it just doesn't feel right. was helping angel cover the perc instrus after band today when immy came up to me and told me not to touch the instrus coz i wasn't in perc. okay larh, maybe he din reallie mean it but still. i dun feel that i belong to perc. well it's a fact that i don't la, so wadz the point of me getting a part for perc ensemble? maybe it's coz i dun feel the bond within the section. im also afraid that i won't be able to play my part well, coz i haven't touched sticks for more than half a year, much less to say mallets. i don't see the point of squeezing my ass into perc when i can be happily enjoying my time in flutes. why create so much trouble for everybody? oh geez im such a trouble creator. i always have a tendency to create issues out of nth. gahh.
rantings.. i reallie reallie reallie can't stand pple whining. i mean like if it is actually an issue to whine about, i dun mind listening. but some pple are just like me, creating smth out of nth. onli difference is that i dun whine heh, unless i reallie can't help it. honestly. they can whine about anything and everything. their sucky lives. how pple are downright irritating. seriously, just get alive and do smth to change ur sucky live. and for irritating pple, i guess u'll just hafta learn how to tolerate them or ignore them. as for me, ive learnt how to bear wif such pple heh. usually when im irritated i dun say it out, one look would be sufficient to say it all. =)