he had to cum and spoil it all he just had to. rarrr.
i feel bad making angel cum all the way down from boon keng to lido just to talk to me. i feel bad coz i couldn't say wad i wanted to at lido coz i was scared of crying. i feel bad to not be able to play wif angel. i know u wanted to so badly. i feel bad for being so irritating and everything. i feel bad for being such an ass.
when corny left to buy the drink angel asked if i wanted to tok bout it. i wanted to. reallie. but i knew i would start crying [okay i did anyway] if i would to tok, and i din know how to start it so i said no. sighz. tried not to affect the mood but blarh. couldn't help it.
ahhh. just realized the lyrics of my blogg song is sooo. i dunno how to say. let's just say tt it totally reflects mee now. sometimes i wonder how pple can live in such illusion. tt life's all gd and everything. well, im not saying tt pple can't be happie, but it feels so superficial. like how i always put a smile on my face even if i reallie din feel up to it.
was thinking bout it on the way back home. *angel i lurve u =)* yeahh. if i dun intend to do anything bout it, den stop thinking bout it. as simple as tt. not tt i wanted to think. the marching season tune keeps going inside my head. muahaha.
alvin has a point. since i chose tt path, i'll just hafta accept it. not just accept. i muz make sure i use the time wisely and excel in flute. it just hit me so suddenly tt i just needed some time by myself to think bout stuff. din help that we were doing pw at yoshinoya when angel called. hah. was prob stoning half the time. and oops i think my eyes were reallie red after tt. even cariann noticed. so sorrie pple.
yepx. haf gotten over it. at least i think for the moment. am not reallie thinking bout it anymore now. *hugx angel* thanx for everything =)