gee i feel so screwed up. went wif angel to far east for dinner just now. chicken rice! =) went to 'he and she' to get some stuff and went home after tt coz both of us haven't packed our stuff for band camp heh. and guess wad? i boarded the wrong train -.- how blur can a person get man. i took from orchard down to city hall, onli to change onto the wrong train and go back to dhoby ghaut again. feel so stoopid. ah heck. i'm super tired now and my eyes are blurring, but i shall still blog coz i wun haf chance to do so for the next 2 days. sobx. anyway i wrote this on the way to sch today, and erm during chi hah.
seems like it's always ellyne, corny and me who siam outta the band rm first. we'll always be the first three at the bus-stop waiting for the bus haha. den corny will start crapping and i'll be like diaox. heh. same case yest, just tt he wasn't as hyper as usual = not so lame (: guess he can be serious when he wants to, but is downright lame when he's hyper. he's like the lamest guy i ever knew la. can faint when u hear him talk lor.
yeah anyway, we were at the bus-stop yest when he suddenly asked me why i din join perc in cj. come to think of it, i never seriously thought about tt qn. but becoz of his one statement, i thought about why i choose to do certain things. he said tt everything happends for a reason, and after pondering over it on the stoopid one hr bus ride, i realized he was rite. people always ask me why i do some things, and i'll be like "i don't know", maybe coz i was just trying to avoid answering the qn. yepx, so throughout the bus ride, i was busy thinking and answering my own qns. long bus rides are good..gives me time to think about stuff like this (: everytime i get home i wun be able to do anything coz it'll be too late and i'll be very tired, esp these few days coz there's band prac every single day.
why did i choose to go cj? to put it simply, i can't go anywhere else. i mean where can 14-4 get me? like geez. besides jj, cj was my best choice. and i guess it was oso coz of angel. she was psychoing me to go cj haha. it sorta influenced me hehx. stoopid angel. say all the rubbish propaganda to make me go cj.
why band? actually wanted to join canoeing/fencing/band. ended up in band of course. angel was actually against me joining canoeing coz of all the politics, and i dun think i'll have the strength [both mental and physical] to cope wif training AND studies anyway, so tt was out. fencing was just too costly. over a thousand bucks just for buying and maintaining the equipment was too much for me so yeah. and what am i left with? band. oh i oso wanted badminton initially, but i knew tt i wun be able to make it so i din even go for the tryouts. maybe it's just the thoughts of not being able to make it in tt puts me off. i know im such a loser by thinking tt way. yup, so i ended in band after all.
thought tt i din have a reason for choosing flute over perc, but went to think about it after corny asked me, and yeah, there ARE reasons why i chose flute and not perc. it's the pple i guess. if angel was staying in band, i would have chosen perc, but the thing is, she's only playing for syf then leaving the band for canoeing. whereas if i join flutes, there's hazel. [at tt pt in time, jiahui too. but she pangseh-ed us. nvm bout tt] i wun deny tt i regret a little of the choice tt i made, coz the perc pple seem more fun [in fact the ARE more fun] perhaps it's a perc thing. most perkys are abit haywire in the brain and super lame. -think xp and corny- *faints*
bleh okay. stoopid corny. made me think so much. but it's good, it's good. okie my eyes are closing liao. and there's band camp tmr. sighz. hopefully i'll survive band camp and not die, coz there's math test on mon, chem and bio on wed. blarhh..